I took 5mg of ativan to try to feel better. I keep having paranoid thoughts that my fiancee doesn't love me, even though he's said it like 10 times this morning. I keep thinking he's annoyed with me and wants to leave and he says that couldn't be further from the truth. But I'm just scared and it's really getting to me. I know it's just my paranoia and I need to try to ignore it, but it's really hard. No matter what he says, I can't stop being scared. I need some shots of alcohol.