I dont know what too do know,everything was better now its back. The thoughts,thinking about death about your funeral,what it feels like to die. I thought I was over it that the meds had worked but its back and I dont know what to do and I am worried. I was having a blast with all my friends and family that care deeply about me,without caring what anyone thought and just being myself. Now its back. If I do something it will be soon because I don't want too live my life in this never ending cycle of going from feeling wonderful for a few months,then feeling like hell for even more. If I do it everyone Ive met and my family and friends would be devestated but I dont know if I can go on like this,with the chemical imbalance. What should I do??