Does anyone else here have to do this? I go to the doctor and he tries me out on various ssri's. I've tried them all, they don't do anything except when I try to come off them, I get "zapps" and dizziness and generally feel bad. I 've tried beta blockers, my bad feelings don't come from elevated breathing or heart rate, I can be breathing normally and have a really slow heart rate and blood pressure but be feeling bad. Not depressed, but anxious and nausious. I have to feel my pulse all the time. I would rather do some really strenuous excercise to get my heart pumping so that I can feel it properly, but when it comes down again, I feel bad. The doctor won't give me diazepam, which is probably the only thing, apart from alcohol, which helps me. So I basically told the doctor that if I can't be on tranquilizers, I'll just end up self medicating with drink, and he just shruggs his shoulders as if to say "right, fine with me". Dick. The only thing he offers apart from ssri's is "cognitive therapy". Look, I'm sure it's good for some people and all, but this thing can't be reasoned with. I know we're all in the same boat and I know there are other people who feel this way. Meeting them and chatting isn't going to stop me feeling like this. I don't have irrational thoughts, I don't think people hate me or think bad things about me. I just feel bad and only drink and benzo's can make me feel ok. All my childhood was the same and I just had to grin and bear it. Now I'm an adult, I don't have to feel bad all the time, I can kill it with drink.