I didnt go to bed last night or wake up this morning with the idea to post this thread. Actually I was driving into work and it came to me. As clearly as anything. I am not going to talk religion here, other than to say, that if you want your pain to end, if you want suicidal ideation to end, if you want to start living your life again,.....then there is a way. He can help. He helped me, and can help you too. If you want more info or would like me to help with this, please send me a pm.