He keeps hurting me.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by AsphyxiateOnWords, Dec 11, 2011.

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  1. AsphyxiateOnWords

    AsphyxiateOnWords If you're 555, then I'm 666.

    I feel like I'm the only one of us who actually cares about our relationship. In the beginning I felt like we had so much in common and lately I feel like I'm all wrong for him. He makes me feel sad and uncared about. It's like he doesn't even care to try not to hurt my feelings most of the time. But yet he claims to love me and not be able to live without me. It has to just be attachment on his part because if he loved me, I'd think he'd treat me better. It just makes no sense. I want to die. There's nothing worth staying alive for except my mom, but that being the only reason, I just don't want to deal with this. When this stupid relationship ends just like all the rest, I'm going to be so miserable that I'm going to want to crawl up the freaking walls. I dread that so much. The non-stop crying and feeling like shit during the day, and then not being able to sleep without having nightmares and panic attacks. I don't want it to get to that point. I want to die before it does. I even have a method and all, but I'm such a fucking coward that I can't do it unless I'm miserable first.

    If anyone responds, I just ask that they don't tell me I'll find someone else because I don't care to and even if I did, it would end up how it always does anyway.
  2. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    Don't give up yet. It's just a relationship. I'm sure you'll find someone better.
  3. 1Lefty

    1Lefty Well-Known Member

    Love isn't words, it's actions that matter.

    I'm glad you're here, and you can come here anytime to unburden yourself and get some encouragement and support. You do know you have a whole community worldwide that cares for you, and thinks you're important.

    I'm a male, and I can't defend or apologize for any of the other males around. All I know is that a true man treats his woman like gold, and there's no doubt in her mind. That goes further and deeper than any manipulations.

    You deserve better, and when it's time, I think you'll escape into a kinder, sweeter world, and not through suicide.

    Take good care of yourself, you have friends here.
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