I cant anymore. I just cant. The last two days were enough. I've lived Hell for the last several years and yet again he wins. I just want the death that was in my fingertips and ripped away like everything else important in my life lately. It is the one thing he cant take away. I have nothing left. My heart only keeps beating because that is all it knows to do. The rest of me finally died today. Im sorry but I cant do it anymore.