Thats what i have become but its more like a heads basher. see i have got now tro the point that i take my fist to the side of my temple and do my best to bash my own head in. i have had some limited success, i think i now have a small fracture but nothing of major significance. hows that? i even fail at beating my brains out, ironic isnt it?? im sick and tired, thats what i am im sick........... of life im tired...........of living whats the point anyway, really?? im just doing my best to make it look 'unfortunate' and i cant even tell you why i care about that. im a waste of life and there are those that would love to have it, doesant anyone see how wrong that is? i hate me! i hate me as much as anyone in my life ever hated me. i pray i beg for this to end every day, every night i BEG please just let it end, let tonight be the last PLEASE??!!