I'm quite a new member, but in a nut shell: -I'm a qualified teacher -I was abused as a child at the age of 6-8. -I was abused as an adult by my ex; sexually, verbally, emotionally and physically. -I've self harmed for 5 years, been free for 4 months, except one small cut. Life is still giving me a beating, and I don't know how much more I can take. I almost look up to a friend, who committed suicide last year. How wrong is that?!! I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm on meds, and have had 4 lots of counselling. Never hospitalised. I just want everything to go away.