I am heading towards depression, I can feel it coming. Two different things are triggering it. One is my friend who asked me to put new drawer slides in his kitchen and wants me to pay for the slides, he says he can't afford them. It is about an hour drive to his place and I went there once to look at the situation and then I spent about a month of my spare time trying to find a slide that will work. THe first time I ordered a slide they billed me for a case of slides and overdrafted my bank account, costing me $38. I spent several hours getting the charge for the slides off my account but I could not do anything about the overdraft fee. When I finally had a slide I set a date and time to be at his house to see if it would work and nobody answered the door. It is an hour drive there and an hour back and costs me about $15 in gas money. I installed a slide last Saturday and it will work but I need to add some blocking to make it work so I have to go there again. I want to install one drawer slide so he can see how it works and if he is happy with it. I will have to order 4 more slides, costing me about $75 plus gas and time. If I don't do this he will be angry with me and no longer be my friend. In October I recieve 5 paychecks so my extra money will pay for the drawer slides. I have enough money to pay my bills and have some left over but this will put a strain on my budget. The other thing is a thread in Positive Feelings saying you should not drink alcohol. I went on the thread and posted that I drink and like it and a bunch of guys jumped on me assuming that I drive while drunk. There are two things in my life right now that make life worth living. One is my collection of Coleman Lanterns. I find lanterns and work on them and fix them up, cleaning and polishing and make them work. The other is my time with one of my roomates that has become a good friend. The best friend I ever had. We talk about everything from sex to politics and religion. We set out in the garage at a folding table when I get home from work and we both drink alcohol. He used to be an alcoholic, lost a $20 per hour job because of alcohol, his daughter was killed in an accident and he turned to alcohol, tried to kill himself with alcohol and broke his leg and survived it because of that. They took him to a hospital and took care of him and he survived. We both drink responsibly now, never drive drunk. THe guys in the thread are saying that if I drink alcohol I have a problem and know it I am just denying it. They are saying I am a terrible person for drinking and driving. These two things together are going to cause me to go into a deep depression for months, I am BiPolar, and there is no way around it. I have to buy $75 worth of drawers slides or my friend will hate me and I am a terrible person for drinking alcohol.