I have never been suicidal, but I have been past the point where life didn't matter anymore. During the last year, I have made some huge scars trough my self.. Now I no longer feel that I have a "reason" for being depressed, but I still often get the urge to just sit down and cry because "I have done so much to try and feel better... Why won't it let me be glad? How long do I have to keep fighting a fight nobody sees?" I have reasons to believe that most of the bad stuff now, is simply me trying to heal after being on the edge of suicidal thoughts. What I want to ask about is simply if there are any good ways to help speed up this process... Every time I have a bad day I feel I'm back to the same as I was when it all was worst. It makes me feel lost, and it makes me want to give up. I just want to get better... Why can't I?