Does anyone ever see their wounds start to heal and that alone makes them want to do it again? It's all fading and I only want to do it more. Right now I'm on here typing INSTEAD of cutting. When I'm done I will probably clean... housework is busy. I dont know what then. But I am trying just like what I would want someone else to do but I am being honest when I say that I don't know how long the busy-ness will last and I'll do it again. I dont want my arms to be seen but I also dont want the wounds to fade. It's so intense and I know I will feel better and when I do it will finally be off my mind. If I do other things, cutting will still be on my mind, I just wont be doing it. I cant literally talk to anyone right now but I can post here.... it's something. My arm itches so bad even as I type now. If anyone else is reading this at least know Im trying and I hope someone else at least tries to distract themselves as well, even only for a a little while. Maybe after awhile I can distract myself long enough the urge will go away, at least for that time. Maybe I can practice at not doing it. I would really love to scream. I'm gonna find something to do and i will be back. Thank u for listening.