Sometimes on Facebook I get requests from people I knew in school. I dread those moments because you just know they're going to ask you what you're doing with your life now. To which, what do I say? That I've spent the better part of the last 14 years dealing with depression, anxiety and extreme self-loathing thanks to what I went through in school, and that I haven't been able to face working? I'm on a part-time college course at the moment so I can talk about that at least. But still...the course I'm on is an employability skills course. So what, was I not employable before then? And they tend to be doing very well for themselves. They're married, have kids and some big successful job. And honestly, I don't have that much to show since I left school. I have a bit more of a social life these days. Have a few friends. To be honest though, I'd rather just forget about school completely these days. I still have recurring dreams about school and I don't have fond memories of it at all. Sometimes I think I've moved on but then other times something will happen to trigger those memories. A dream or seeing someone from back then. I also had a bit of a reputation for being the quiet kid. The loner. The dork. And as much as I've grown and evolved as a person since those days, I always feel bound by who I was back then. Sometimes I try to compensate for it by being as loud as I possibly can these days. My older brother even told me I was being too loud the other day. I'm not really looking for any advice with this situation. I really just wanted to rant and see if anyone else here could relate and has dealt with similar experiences?