I wasnt really sure where to stick this. Im not depressed, jus down and hurting. And im not suicidal so didnt wana put it in there. Im jus hurting so bad again. My ex has got a loan to buy a car. She is paying it back over 4 years. It hurts because she didnt wana move to be with me because she was worried about money. I could never get her to save enough, even tho im a student and saved everythig i could. And now she is getting a loan? And the other thing is that she wanted to go travelling. My priority was always for us to live together as we had been long distance for 2 + years. I thought we cud see the world thro holidays and things. but at least we wud be stable in a home of our own together. being with each other everyday. the things i thought we both dreamed of. But now she is tied for four years with a loan. I know she wasnt ready to move, but when we split she said that us living together was wat i wanted and that wat she wanted was to go travelling. but now she isnt gona go for at least 4 years. i jus dont understand. how i cud i have ever been the one. she told me thousands of times that i was. But how could i have been if she can settle now with a car, but not me? Am i a bitch for feeling hurt? i dont know anymore.