The first thread I wrote was about relationship problems...they mainly contribute to my depression, other things being that my life just sucks in general. All I ever wanted was a chance with this guy and he couldn't give me one after four years of online hell when he said he loved me, it was all a lie. I'm having suicidal thoughts again and I even thought I might have to direct someone's attention to it in my life soon. I want to tell my therepist, I had an appointment with her last week but it was cancelled I really needed to see her. Nobody seems to understand how serious I am I guess. I really need help, I can admit it. The medicine I'm on isn't doing a damn thing for me either. My therepist proved it even. I just want to be rid of these horrible feelings and to be over this person that has caused me so much heartache.