My life upto this point has mirrored many others people`s on this forum (from what I can see) From a young age I have had anxiety, depression and horrible obsessive thoughts that have stopped me getting ahead in every aspect of my life and made me feel as if I`ve been living in some kind of Hell for the last 15 years (approx half my life). However, (and if I didnt feel worthless enough), to make matters worse, I have a good looking, mental-illness-free brother that is good at everything and a father that lies to everyone about me because he`s ashamed of having a neurotic failure as a son. The only person I can ever count on or relate to is my mother who has mental illness stamped through her side of the family like Blackpool Rock (non Brits might not `get` that reference for which I apologise). I wonder if anyone else out there has problems made worse by their family`s attitudes to mental illness. If so, how do you handle it? I don`t know whether to confront my father over this, ignore him or struggle on regards and tow the line, telling everyone what they want to hear (that I`m a high flying success and feeling A-Ok!) It`s been pretty obvious over the course of my life that he doesnt take the issue very seriously despite having an ex wife (my mother) and son (me) endure the horrors of psychological pain to the extent that we have each wanted to kill ourselves over it. I guess the most hurtful about all this is that he seems to care more about what other people think than his immediate family`s well being. Or maybe he does care, doesnt know how to show it and lies to others because it`s the easiest way of dealing with it? Maybe he was just brought up to believe that mental illness doesnt exist or really equates to some kind of character deficiency so pathetic that to mention it brings shame on his family or makes him appear a `bad father`. I try to put myself in his shoes and make allowances for the fact that he hasnt suffered mental illness one day in his whole life (apparently) but even in that light I have to come to the conclusion that he has acted like a selfish, uncaring bastard. Am I being too harsh? What do you all think?