Hello.. I don't really know where to start.. I guess I'll just start off saying some basic stuff. Name; just, call me 'Metal' Gender; Female. Age; I'm 17 Reason for joining; I needed to get a few things off my back, and I really didn't want to tell my friends. So I decided to turn to google to find a forum, this one was the first one to pop up, so I came here. I hope I don't piss anyone off.. I tend to rant a lot.. I'll try to keep my posts/forums to a minimum, but sometimes that wont really work. Here's some of my history in short, just so you can know a little of why I am here. I'll post more about it in the correct forum topics. -When I was young my dad left, I never really knew him until I was 14. When I did end up meeting him he verbally and mentally harassed me. Always yelling that he wanted a son, not a daughter, that I shouldn't be alive right now, because I was the 0.01% chance of my mom getting pregnant. (She was using birth control, and my dad using a condom), I should just go and find new parents, that I shouldn't be taking his last name etc. -My mom died from MS (Multiple Sclerosis) and an Upper GI Rupture (I'm pretty sure something in her throat ruptured, (bleeding to death) I don't really like to ask my grandmother about it, cause I don't want her getting 'triggered') when I was 9. (April 19th 2004, I was to turn 10 in June of that year) She was in the hospital 3 years before she passed, my step dad (whom she was never really married to) was the same blood type as her, meaning she could have lived, if the doctors actually got off their asses once in a while and took blood tests. -I've been abused/bullied through school. I'll talk more about that later though, seeing how this forum is actually getting pretty long. -In grade 7, I learned that I was bisexual. Then in high school, I realized I am a lesbian. (again, I'll talk more about this later) -In grade 9 my best friend killed himself. -During my ex-girlfriends (I still love her till death) grade 12 graduation, she was at her after party while I was at my friends graduation party. (I'm in grade 12 right now, graduating this year, hopefully). We were talking to each other, and I fell asleep, I got a text that morning saying that a man had raped her. She's still trying to get through it, but he not only took her bravery, but he also took her virginity. (And again, I'll get more into this later) Well, this basically 'sums' me up. I have a few more things to say as well.. but I really should end this, it's getting to be a bit long... -Take care, =Metal.