Hello everyone, I'm here after doing the rounds of pro and anti suicide sites. Just on the slow climb back to some sort of 'normality' after what seems like the hundredth attempt to end it all. The desire to die never really goes away, it just hides in a corner of my head poking it's face 'round the corner much too often for comfort. I'm not too good with web sites, not good at talking, not good at 'friendships', in fact, probably not too different to many others on here, but I have a belief it helps sometimes to be among your own kind so to speak, so I'm here to ask for help, and to help if I can. Don't take that too literally just yet, I'm at the stage where emotionally I haven't a bloody clue what I want, but I reckon reading other people's experiences and feelings and given time, I'll be able to put into words something of my own and maybe help someone else in a similar position. ok, I talk crap, I'll shut up now and go work out how to get 'round the site. best wishes to everyone T.