First off. I apologize for any short or misspelled words. I'm @ work on my cellphone. Lol. I'm new here & I guess I needed a place to come & vent or I guess be around ppl like myself. I too attempted suicide twice when I was 17. I swallowed a bottle of pain meds. Both times. My story is extremely long. So to shorten it up. I'm 38 now. & still think about how to end it. And make it seem like an accident. My best friend passed in September 2011. (still hurts). Sometimes I don't know whether I'm coming or going. I'm not sure if I need help. Or really even want help. I'm sorry for not being real specific but I'm sure I'll prly be on here a lot. Thx for ur time.