Okay, so a little more about my situation:
I've been seeing professionals for help since i was eight. Mostly because of my anger problems initially,then the depression. I actually think highly of them, and in several cases, they have been very helpful. My parents have always, always been supportive, despite whatever crap i've put them through and i really hate the idea that i've let them down. My youth was relatively okay, to be honest. Happiest days of my life.
But my life has been an emotional suckride since i turned 18. It's been almost 12 years now. I'd be lying if i said there weren't periods during that time that i wasn't happy. I mean, if you spend months isolating yourself in your house because of crap in your head, you tend to notice when you don't feel so bad. These instances become more salient. But they don't last long. I went home last christmas and it felt great to be back in the place i grew up in. Then, i just felt bad again. Right now, i'm busy with things, so i can't really go back home yet.
Okay. Just getting that off my chest.
Thanks.