Hello, new here of course. I needed somewhere to go, someplace where people would know what I am feeling, what I am going through. Hopefully this place is it. Briefly about my situation. My wife left me about 2 weeks ago. She will not talk or commicate with me whatsoever. She said she needs her space and time. I am trying to do that but it is so so hard to do. I have not bothered her. Just a text here or there that was more of the business type, bills, house, etc... I do not want to loose her. She is my entire world. I know she and I have slipped away, but this all is a wake up call. I just want the chance to fix our marriage but with her gone it is hard. If I knew she needed 4 weeks then that would be something I could deal with. It is all the unknown though. Will it be four weeks? Four months? Or never? I am lucky that I am surrounded by a few friends and family that has helped me out so much and I have not been alone, by myself since she has left me. But tonight I will be alone. In "our" house alone! I am so scared. I have had thoughts of just ending it all. I mean without my wife, the love of my life I have nothing to live for. NOTHING! My friends have helped me, and have talked to me and well it helps. Now however, I will not have anybody. I am tired of leaning on my friends. I need to do this all alone now. To see if I can make it. Not sure if I can though. I think about things like, should I leave a note or not. Should it be messy like a gun, or clean, with meds. Should I call people and tell them goodbye? These are my thoughts now, when I am around family. How will I be tonight? I only have a few more hours until tonight when I am alone. Hopefully somebody out there can help. Oh yeah, if I make it I have an appointment with a Dr. Next Tuesday to see about getting on meds. Thank you for listening, Mike