I don't feel that I can talk to anyone in my family or to any friends about how I'm really feeling because they're too close. I don't want to upset them, and I don't want them to upset me as my mum did the other night when I tried to talk about it. She said the cliche, dreaded thing that suicide is cowardly. I basically said angrily that she'd have to have ME/CFS for 10 years before she'd earn the right to say that. Yes I know, it's not how I want to talk about where I am!