hello Darkness

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by sadcat, Jul 12, 2013.

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  1. sadcat

    sadcat Well-Known Member

    Hello Darkness - my old friend.
    So much pain to bear,
    I feel so alone. Hard to tell anyone again.
    Everyday more pain. And new threats from the doctors.
    Your gonna die - next year, next month, in a month, tomorrow.
    Make up your minds. Every time I hear you - I die inside.
    Cant eat anything it seems. Get sick every day.
    Pain in both arms, both legs, both hands, all fingers.
    How can this be.
    Every nite the urge to die returns.
    I come here - and go to chat - and no one sees me anymore.
    No one speaks to me. They are too busy in personal messages.
    I am drowning in this emptiness, sinking down into the depths.
    No sounds any more to bring me back. Just the cold emptiness.
    Sinking down, down, down into the darkness.
    Shril quiet all around me .
    Sinking into the darkness - and the deep.
  2. flowers

    flowers Senior Member

    Hi Sadcat. I am sorry the pain and aloneness is this intense. And the news is not better from the doctors.
    Sometime I can chat with you. If you want to do that. I could come here most any night, if you wanted :hug:
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I see you hun and i am sorry to you are feeling so alone isolated. Please hun know that is not true ok you can pm me anytime as well hugs
  4. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    I hear you, and I care. :hug: Please talk to me. I know I can't fix the physical pain, but you don't have to go through this alone.
  5. sadcat

    sadcat Well-Known Member

    I feel the ground beneath me slipping out.
    The gravel tears my skin away. Blood all over me.
    Reaching out and breaking my arms in each effort.
    Rolling and tumbling down , down, down like a log rolling over.
    Voices reach me in a jumble now as dirt and stones cover over me.
    ...can i reach the flower as i fall down steeper.
    ...and as the moon covers the sun, fairies cannot mend the light
    ...plucking a wild cherry from the grass as i speed by
    Seems to offer a small hope
    Or is all hope now lost and gone away,
    As slipping down and tumbling this sadcat approaches the
    Lava pit down in the bottom of this world.

    Screams for help seem so distant from myself.
    Perhaps resistance is no longer possible.
    My life is slipping away and i no longer wish to try.
    Perhaps its time to sleep and no more cry.
  6. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    No, it's not time to sleep. Don't let go, you're not alone in this!! :hug: There's still hope. Just keep reaching out, holding onto whatever you can.
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