Hello Darkness - my old friend. So much pain to bear, I feel so alone. Hard to tell anyone again. Everyday more pain. And new threats from the doctors. Your gonna die - next year, next month, in a month, tomorrow. Make up your minds. Every time I hear you - I die inside. Cant eat anything it seems. Get sick every day. Pain in both arms, both legs, both hands, all fingers. How can this be. Every nite the urge to die returns. I come here - and go to chat - and no one sees me anymore. No one speaks to me. They are too busy in personal messages. I am drowning in this emptiness, sinking down into the depths. No sounds any more to bring me back. Just the cold emptiness. Sinking down, down, down into the darkness. Shril quiet all around me . Sinking into the darkness - and the deep.