Hello everybody, I don't know where to start but let see.....I've personally tried to commit suicide twice and have experienced suicide by a couple of my friends both in my teenage years and now that i have become an adult. The hardest thing for me to deal with the was the attempted suicide by my dad, this man is my best friend my hero and was and always to me will be made of steel. It was a rough few years but through family understanding and ALOT of soul and self searching i realized that suicide was not for me. I am happily married with two kids and yes there has been a few times i have thought, well i want my kids to have a memory of their daddy instead of knowing a depressed sad individual. This all changed one day when i had <Mod Edit - Acy -methods> in the shower with me ready to let it all go, ready to be a memory to those that loved me. I blanked out ready to <Mod Edit - Acy - methods> when something in me changed, every bit of hurt that i have ever been through either by self mutilation or forms of mental and physical torture by others have made me a better person then any of them will ever be! There is so many sides to what i thought my inner pain was about and my suicidal thoughts that i couldnt wrap my head around it till that very moment, I want to be here for people that need help, that need a shoulder to cry on or maybe just an ear to listen. I may not understand each and every individual situation, but i do understand the inner need to end it all, the need to pull the trigger or swallow the last pill. I am a very open person and I hope that if somebody is in a time of need i can help them, each and every one of you is a source of strength for everybody around you! I fail to believe that if anybody has been hurt in anyway that the person that you has won, YOU have won and YOU are the embodiment of strength YOU are still here!