I guess I don't need to explain why I'm here - I guess everybody's here for roughly the same reasons - but I'll give a brief rundown. For numerous reasons, I've been suffering from severe chronic depression for probably about 9 years now. I wasn't diagnosed until a few years ago, but I've felt roughly this way since I was 16, and it's only gotten worse over time, really. I've been through medication, therapy, and a psych ward, and nothing has really helped. I've always been suicidal, on-and-off, and, well, I guess this is a time when it's been more severe. I've always been too much of a coward to actually go through with it, but I'm becoming less afraid these days, and, ironically, being less scared makes me more scared, in other ways. So I'm just trying everything I can. I happened upon this forum while looking up resources for suicide/depression. Anyways, thanks for reading. I look forward to talking with you.