I've just found this site by doing a goggle search. Yes i'm suicidal but don't freak out yet. I won't commit it yet (if I ultimately do it) (50% chance) as I have to plan things well. I tell you all about it at a later date when I have gained enough confidence with the people of this forum. Now onto some more reading (interesting stories). I've never really talked about this with anybody else (out of embarrasment).