Just wanted to post something and just say hello to you all. Having a really tought time at the moment, and the horrible thoughts are back again. Got the old black dog snapping at my heels. Sick of living like this. they gave me meds to make me feel better, yet I don't feel any better at all. The meds just numb me, and I can't feel anything....so I drink too much to 'feel' something. Just so dead inside, can't even cry. This is the life I never envisaged having - yet I am so alone in life. Nobody cares. Nobody loves me, and I have no friends. I can go day to day without talking to anyone (not through choice I may add) I'm only here cos of my kids.