I'm not much of a poster so sorry if this seems strange as a form of post. I've had feelings of depressions and suicide since the age of about 3 I think. I was sitting in my math class the other day and remembered an attempt that came about from duress when my father and mother were having a fight. I had leapt from the top of what I thought were high stairs at the time (5 stairs) headfirst intending to somehow make all the yelling stop. Thoughts of suicide subsided until I was about 11. They've been incessant for the past 7 years and it's becoming the major factor as to how I identify myself. I'm not sad, there's been no real major trauma to cause any of this, I'm just empty feeling and I find it really hard to do anything most of the time. My grades have been suffering for years. I'm a senior in high school now and I've not done much since 6th grade. Though surprisingly I've not failed a grade. The reason I'm finally talking about this is because I need to graduate high school and I don't want to upset my current girlfriend if I snap. Does anybody else feel this way? I was trying to find stuff about it but it was just stupid prevention sites instead of anything genuinely useful. Loking back on all the stuff I wrote makes me feel like I'm whining about it.