Hello from Australia

Discussion in 'Welcome' started by Pilko, Aug 23, 2009.

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  1. Pilko

    Pilko Active Member

    Hi Everyone

    Like many other times in the last 10-15 years I have wanted to escape from my life, I have made poor choices but on the exterior I have appeared strong, generally happy, career orientated and a social person. Really, when I am alone I scream in pain inside. I cannot function sometimes when I am alone or I cancel things. I make even poorer decisions out of loneliness and I contemplate an end to it all on a regular basis. This weekend I was ready to go and really I know I will feel that way again.

    There is too much to do and I don't know where to start. I haven't talked to anyone, because if they knew my secrets they may run. I have a brother who suffers from depression, I only know this through my parents. He is successful and has a family and is happy.

    Me I have a great new job, a wonderful 13 year old son. A few close friends, no boyfriend, because I do not want them in this hell with me. Bills that are unpaid and little money. I feel I am about to get caught out on a mistake I made with my previous job and that from a reputation point of veiw I could not handle it. On the surface I appear fine to everyone because I smile and talk and no one would ever know

    Mandy, I appreciate that you chatted with me independantly. I think this site has helped me for today. I am not sure what will happen this week but the realization has hit me this weekend I am not fine.

    Thanks All, nice to meet you.
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Welcome and please keep writing and reaching out lots of support here fighting the fight with someone is always easier so please keep posting let us help .
  3. busenbust

    busenbust Well-Known Member

    Welcome to SF, and please take care of yourself :wave:
  4. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    welcome to the forums :D :hug:
  5. Zurkhardo

    Zurkhardo Well-Known Member

    Welcome to the site Aussie :p Wish you the best! :)
  6. Xenos

    Xenos Well-Known Member

    welcome to sf :D
  7. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Welcome to the forums Pilco!! I'm sure the longer you are here that you will find similarities in others.. This is a great place to make friends and get support..I wish you all the best.. Take Care!!
  8. Confusticated

    Confusticated Well-Known Member

    Hey! and welcome to sf :smile:
  9. LenaLunacy

    LenaLunacy Well-Known Member

    Welcome to the forums :)
  10. Emo_kitty

    Emo_kitty Account Closed

    Welcome to SF
  11. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    :welcome:to the forums. Recognizing and admitting to others that things are not okay is a huge step toward seeking and finding help. I hope you can find the sense of support you need here with us. :shake:
  12. no_point

    no_point Member

    *waves* hello fellow aussie...
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