Hey everyone... It's kind of late here right now, and I gotta sleep, but before, I felt like posting a small introduction here, so when I wake up tomorrow ( today actually, lol ) I might have some posts to read. These suicidal thoughts are not new to me. I'm 21 years old ( I'm surprised I found even younger people than me on this forum ) and today, I had probably one of my worst days ever. The only reason I'm still alive is because of the fact I don't have the guts to end my life. Mainly because I don't want to feel pain and I still think of how my friends and family would deal with the situation.. and I won't be here to see what happens right after that.. and I still think life can get better. I always loved to participate in forums, and for years I haven't found one that would get me addicted to.. ( since the last one ). Hopefully this is the one, even tho it's a bit of ironical, seeing it deals with such a complex subject. As a conclusion, and I hope I'm not asking too much from everyone here, but please, take some time and read all my future posts.. Help me, I really need it.. We all do, but from the little time I went on browsing the topics here, some guys are really not helping at all. If there is someone here from Portugal, let me know. Ciao.