My name is Pedro, I come from Portugal, I'm 20 and I'm not so sure I'll ever make it to 21. Ever since I was little, my life was always marked by loss after loss, I've lived most of my life under depression and the few periods of time where I actually felt alive are now the most painful memories I have. I can fool people into believing I actually turned out preety well, but behind the smoke screens I'm amazed I even got this far on my own... But nowadays I can see the end very clearly and I'm losing the fight really bad so I guess signing here is my last desperate cry for help. To say the truth I don't really believe it'll help all that much but I don't want to go down without at least trying. Alas, if I stop coming here all togheter, just assume I jumped, 'cause I'm sure no-one's coming here to warn you... Also, I'd just like to warn that I'm a rambler by nature, I can go on and on about most subjects so my posts tend to get really long... Also I may fall into the typo and grammar mistake traps. I consider my English really good but it's not my main language so it's not perfect. Sorry in advance for anything. To end this post I'd just like to thank everyone here who takes time off his/her life to listen to someone else's problems. I'm sure it means the life to alot of people, thanks.