Hi, I just joined, and I feel like an old fart already. I was reading ASH back in the day when people still knew what USENET was. Amazingly, I'm still here. I have a quick confession. When I'm sad, I push myself further toward the brink by reading the stories in the suicide survivors sites. I try to read my kids' names into the stories of people who've lost a dad. And it doesn't make me feel better, in case you're wondering.