Hello. I guess I should introduce myself, or I least why I'm here, so here I go. I wasn't very sure about coming here. But sometimes I just really want to talk. Until now when I was insecure, hurt, depressed or sad I had different ways to get better. Like talking to one of my friend who's always here to listen. But you know, no one like peoples who always complains, so sometimes I just feel like I have no one to talk to. I often talk to myself, I even created some personality (I guess it's the closest to imaginary friends) but they don't really exist so sometimes it's not enough. Having an imaginary discussion with peoples like my family, my friends or anyone sometimes help, even if it also give me the impression of escaping reality a bit so much. I have also gone as far as cutting myself, it relieve me of the stress and I'm meticulous as to not doing it so often because I'm not sure if I want it to leave scars or not. But it's no use. I feel like the emptiness will never go away. I feel lonely and helpless. I'm just a huge failure. I just wish my life could end. I don't want to die, I just really don't want to live and I can't kill myself because I can't do that to my parents, and because my only chance to live is right now. But years goes on and I don't feel like anything is getting better. I've tried to run away from that by giving myself a new start, and so I've gone to continue my studies overseas, it didn't work out so well. So I guess I now try different things, to not give up, and maybe find a way to get things better. This is what I'm doing here. And I'm not sure I should be. I'm afraid to be judged or rejected, I've already encounter peoples who didn't understood me and hurt my feelings. I'm afraid of peoples I guess. I can't trust easily. But I have to give it a shot.