I have returned after a long absence. Starting to be bothered again with suicidal ideations and need to be around people who understand. My life right now is complicated & stressful. I am still working as a nanny part time but am also a caregiver for my dad who has Alzheimer's. He is still able to do things for himself but he cannot live alone so I live with him. I don't know if you have a caregiver forum, will have to look. I am also experiencing some physical health issues. I have a herniated disc in my neck and possibly one in my lower back. I have gone through physical therapy and need to see my doc on Wed for the results of my MRI. Also going through financial difficulties, mostly because of not working much and stressing over finances. Join the club though I guess. Makes getting on with my life challenging. I am in therapy, still on meds although right now they aren't doing much. I have dealt with depression, anxiety and suicidal ideations for about 30 years now. Just need to be able to talk to others who understand.