Hi Pauly,
Please trust your instinct, NOT your mind. You do not really want to die…
Whatever you are experiencing or feeling, it will pass. You know that!!
Lots of compassionate and friendly ears here. You can also PM us if you prefer. Being heard definitely helps. Sometimes you can see the untruth in your thoughts or story while you are in the process of telling them to someone. So maybe writing down your thoughts and feelings first and see if you’d like to post them here or send them to anyone via Private Messages…or see for yourself if the thoughts and feelings are really or absolutely true...
Love and hugs