I am a Polish, 21-year-old girl and I'm sorry that my english is not fluent. I am here because I have anybody to help me to deal with my problems. I lost my father 6 years age and he was the only person who understood me. I've never had a boyfriend. Nobody never loved me. I fell in love with a much older than me man and it hurts so much that I can't cope with my problems anymore. He is laughing at me everytime he sees me. I have nobody to talk to. I feel so embarrased...I feel that others know about my love and laugh at me. I started to have healthy problems as well - I faint almost every single day and doctors do not know why. I also cut myself and people want me to go to a psychiatrist... Is there anybody who can say something that can cheer me up at least a bit...?