I don't have enough money to entertain happily. I don't have close friends. I can't open my heart. I would sweat overly occasionally when I'm in some social situation. Even my family members don't trust me enouth, because they don't think I'm socially wise and I'm already 28. Thus I don't have a girlfriend. Nevertheless, I'm sex addicted. I feel so tortured. I feel so helpless. When I see someone has a beautiful wife and a good life, I think I have to hide myself underground. I wish to end my life several times a day. I know I had chances to achieve better status, cause I have some rich relatives and I have an IQ of being over 130. But my divorced parents had messed our whole life up. I haven't been an Iron will man, and I have been easily indecisive and passive, so I couldn't persist on doing something confidently for a long time. I always guess I deserve to be sentenced to death for my useless personality.