Hello my name's Derek. I've been feeling this way for a long time and nothing seems to help. I'm currently on medications to treat my depression but every so often I self destruct. It's difficult to live like this putting on happy facades when I feel so horrible deep down. I'm a college student who has never really had any friends. I think about the S word frequently. I'm just looking for some friends who know what I am actually dealing with and can hopefully talk to me about it and relate with me. I feel so alone and it gets to be unbearable. On the other side of the coin I care deeply for people no matter what you're going through I would love to speak to you and help you in any way I can.