Hello all - like many of you I'm in extreme emotional pain and very fragile. I'm a 47 year old guy who lives in Southern California. I'm pretty much alone - and to be frank I'm morbidly obese. I want to believe that at one point in my life I did matter but I don't think I believe I matter to anyone significantly anymore - other than my mom and dad. I'm glad to be with others who understand what I might be going through.