Hello everyone. My name is Paulina, 17 years old, and feeling terribly sad and depressed. At home there happened extremely scary things in the past, my parents didn't care very much about me and I had no one who supported me. I've been bullied my whole life long. Even when I was only 6 years old I already wanted to die bc the bullies where too terrible. I was and still am always the biggest loser, the one who's absolutely worthless while everyone else is much better than me. I've never had friends, apart from people who just used me bc they had no friends either, but left me from the moment that they didn't need me anymore. Apparently it are such severe trauma's that I'm totally blocked and that my mind is totally messed up. The thing is that, I'm still terribly alone, I'm worthless, no one likes me, nothing has changed, the pain just keeps going, and it gets even worse and worse bc I realise more and more that I'm not able to be a person that deserves something. I deserve nothing. I don't know what love is, I don't know what friendship is, I don't know what happiness is, I don't know what it is to feel safe. I've never had luck in my life, I'm such a terrible person that I think that I'm cursed. I wish that I was never born. Life hates me. That's how I feel the whole time. The only thing that gives me a bit of hope, is drawing, bc people say that I'm talented in drawing. But with a lot of things in life, it won't probably mean anything to me anymore in a few years. I came to here bc the pain is eating on me, it's destroying me.