Hi The date of my death has been set and I look foward to the completion of my destiny a few months from now. This is a decision I have made not out of any emotion whatsoever, but by sheer logic alone. By reason and rationalisation this is the decision I must take. It feels like I have set a date for a holiday, I am that excited. I hope I have the courage when required. This world is beautiful. I love animals and I love nature. I know there are some beautiful people in this world but I seem to bring out the worst in people. I am the problem. If it was my circumstances that were the problem maybe I could leave for new circumstances and a new environment. But I am the problem. I can't escape me. I worked hard in the belief that suicide was for the weak. I struggled on with courage and determination for many years believing it was more noble to fight on against adversity. Now I see nothing more glorious than closing the curtains, turning the lights off and saying goodbye. I have no hate. I have no love. There is no-one here but me. I speak to no-one. There never was anyone. Life can be great, I am sure of that. But no matter how hard one tries destiny cannot be changed. When I think of suicide I do not sit here with tearful eyes. I do not think of what I will have lost and what wonderful things I will never see again or people I will leave. When i think of suicide I think of all of the things I will never have to subject myself to again. This makes me smile.