Hello, I turned 35 in may. I am a male. I found out my wife no longer loved me. After 6 years of marriage she called it quits and would not budge. I had no children with her. She could not have any. We raised her son together. The sad thing is was my marriage was abusive. My ex suffers from rage and anger. One minute "high" happy and the next "low" angry. She has made me believe I could not make it without her. I took paxil for a long time "5 years" to adjust to her. But now I am over her. The part that hurt the most was she hit me in the divorce for a lot of money. It hurt. Because I paid all the bills for us. While she worked to yet she never helped me out. She was always more concerned about her pets. My uncle died this year. We were close. I lost a very good job this year also. I have a new one but it is not like the old. I am selling the family home and moving. I have had way to much go on this year. It has stressed me so much I lost 50 pounds! I try to workout when I can to counteract it but that was not the source of the sudden weight loss. My mom died 7 years ago. I found her dead. My grandmother bless her heart is getting older and she lived with us. She is still sharp just she cannot drive. My dad went in and out of state hospitals till he moved in with my uncle and aunt after my mom died. He had an awesome career in accounting. But it affected him so bad you know. He and I have never had a good relationship. Several friends have turned the other way except 1 during my rough time. right now in life. It has all hit so fast. I have and am truthfully scared of all these changes. I have never been scared in my past before or ever like this. I need therapy bad. I do not know where to find it cheap nor do I know how to really get help without any insurance anymore. I am ashamed of my life. I look back and especially after this divorce feel I have nothing to show for it. I feel like giving up. I am tired. My soul is tired. Is there really hope anymore? Is there really good people out in the world? Thanks for listening. Please share your story with me. Please show me I am not alone in this. Just the fact to know there are others in the world with problems like mine, worse or less.