Hi I am new here. I have been suicidal since early teens. I lost Mom four years ago, I am 38 now. I have no job, and I get no help. But, money I dont even care about. I wake up everyday thinking this will be the day I end it. I go to thereapy when I can afford it, but it does not really help me. Nothing will bring my Mom back. I want to be with her. I know this would hurt her and my family and friends, but if I am the one who has to live with this, whay cant I end it. What makes physical pain worse than emotional pain? If I was dying of cancer and took my own life, people would understand. But if I am suffering emotionally, shouldnt I be able to end it?