Hello I'm new here,,, I honestly am a person that never shares my feelings, so all this is new to me. I feel like this is the end, I have made so many mistakes in my life, burned every bridge imaginable, and I have been a selfish person not thinking about the people around me. I'm at the point where I can't stand myself anymore everything is overwhelming and I feel smothered. I have had to fight and struggle for things my whole life, but now I feel defeated, beaten and broken I just don't want to go on. I just want to sleep and never wake up. The pressure is so enormous it's hard to make it through the day. I just need someone to talk to that maybe understands how I'm feeling.