Hi just joined the forum and was looking for someone to talk to. i hope a admin sees my posts soon so they can be activated. i feel on the edge and hope i can just talk to someone soon. i feel empty. been on altruline (zoloft) and neupax for a month now, and even though i dont have panic attacks anymore i feel empty, numb, with no regards to my or other peoples feelings. ive been smoking none stop, used to have a pack a week and now having one almost per day. im slowly killing myself. and the worst part is that im not afraid to die. side effect of the meds or am i at the end of the line here? please someone help, i dont want my family to feel grief after i do something out of lack of emotion...please. thank you.