Hi there My Name is Neil I am from Guildford England and i am 18 years of age, ever since i was 13 or 14 i have felt suicidal, people often call suicide 'the cowards way' This however is incorrect, in my view dying is hardly cowardly sometimes .. Well let me explain. Suicide is when emotional or maybe physical pain outweighs coping strategies/resources. I tried overdosing roughly 16 months ago but my parents found me before i could find my peace. I then spent 2 weeks in hospital before being placed in a Adoloscent psychiatric Ward Known as leigh House. I spent the best part of 5 months there and guess what i Hated it. The main reason for this Post or thread whichever you prefer, is to tell people who perhaps understand what suicide feels like. I do believe today is a Sunday and it's the 14th, hopefully the 15th will be the day marked on my tombstone. I have already planned out my suicide and i just felt the need to tell someone before i actually carry it out. But if you feel like posting do not say "are you gonna get laid before you die' No I am not i want to die not get a quick fix of ass. However i am kinda a guy who has certain rituals if you like. I am going to do it the way people on deathrow used to or maybe still do. I am going to cook my favourite meal and watch my favourite movie and enjoy myself. Thankyou for taking the time to read this, Much respect and Good luck with your problems, hopefully just hopefully you can be more of a fighter and a stronger person than i was. Peace.