I posted a sort of intro in the Suicide forum before I saw this forum. I am currently a caregiver for my 83 year old dad who has dementia, and I am a lifelong depression sufferer. This year the holidays have really hit me hard, I don't know if it's my dad getting worse or lack of money or my meds not working right...or all three. I do not want to celebrate Christmas this year because all I feel are the losses in my life. I hope to get to know everyone here. Happy holidays.