I never actually thought I would join one of these forums, for I simply never thought I would feel like this. Hi I'm Andy I'm 18 and live in the UK, I was pretty unsure on if it is a right thing to open my frustrations and find some advice online or not, but I just want to try anything. My life is pretty much pants atm. For the past 2 years I have been unable to walk due to severe breaks in my feet, I am on the mend again thankfully. I have other frustrations in my life such as relationships gone wrong which although I understand is a part of life still hurts the same, I watched one of my best friends start a relationship with the girl I love, and have done for five years, and I'm ashamed that I was jealous. I've been having suicidal thoughts frequently for about a month now, the reason why I decided to join today was because of how close I came to carrying out my actions, I want somewhere I can be open about how I feel, because I know keeping this to myself can't be doing me any good.