This is very hard for me to reach out but I feel it has been a longtime coming... I suppose I am looking for reasons why ?? a sympathetic ear in the dark times ?? to offer help if possible ?? I don't really know .. but ...
My mom battled with depression most of my childhood alot of the reasons why were kept from me as I grew up but I have vague memories of a mental hospital and times when my mom wasn't there etc. Anyway life went on and when all seemed happy the shit hit the proverbial fan !!! My mom took her life.
The devastation is still reeling nearly three years on ... I have moved country, have a young family and the one thing that I have feared all of my life is rearing its ugly head ... these thoughts haunt me and it scares the hell out of me. I am unable to express how I feel to my nearest and dearest as I do not want to cause upset ....
So hello to you all :unsure:
My mom battled with depression most of my childhood alot of the reasons why were kept from me as I grew up but I have vague memories of a mental hospital and times when my mom wasn't there etc. Anyway life went on and when all seemed happy the shit hit the proverbial fan !!! My mom took her life.
The devastation is still reeling nearly three years on ... I have moved country, have a young family and the one thing that I have feared all of my life is rearing its ugly head ... these thoughts haunt me and it scares the hell out of me. I am unable to express how I feel to my nearest and dearest as I do not want to cause upset ....
So hello to you all :unsure: