Hi, everyone,
28 year old female here, tired of life, tired of struggling, and tired of trying to pretend that everything is ok or that things will get better. I don't want to die, I want to have a happy life, see my friends and family, but the hateful feelings and feelings of worthlesness that I get don't seem to go away and sometimes it seems like just the easier way out. I have always had feelings like this, but was able to pick myself up and struggle on, even enjoying a somewhat good life a few years back. But for the last year or two, it has creeped back up, and no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to regain my composure the way I used to. I'm stuck in this vicious cycle and there seems to be no way out. I don't want to do this, I have dreams and hopes like everyone else, and most importantly I don't want to do it to my close ones, to leave them in the mess that suicide brings. This is why I'm here....
FF xxx
28 year old female here, tired of life, tired of struggling, and tired of trying to pretend that everything is ok or that things will get better. I don't want to die, I want to have a happy life, see my friends and family, but the hateful feelings and feelings of worthlesness that I get don't seem to go away and sometimes it seems like just the easier way out. I have always had feelings like this, but was able to pick myself up and struggle on, even enjoying a somewhat good life a few years back. But for the last year or two, it has creeped back up, and no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to regain my composure the way I used to. I'm stuck in this vicious cycle and there seems to be no way out. I don't want to do this, I have dreams and hopes like everyone else, and most importantly I don't want to do it to my close ones, to leave them in the mess that suicide brings. This is why I'm here....
FF xxx