Hi everyone, I'm quite new to this kind of a forum, and I don't really know what to feel. I have been having suicidal tendencies since the age of 9, for various reasons, but for the past 2 years, I feel like my life has completely slipped out of my control. I tried talking with peers and family, but even a mild suggestion of my condition made them extremely upset. At the moment I don't think anyone suspects that I'm having ideas in my mind to end it all. I need someone to talk to, because I really have lost all hope, and I'm scared of myself.